Thursday, October 24, 2013

Fern Bernice Wimmer

One of the hardest things I've had to witness was the three days I spent with my sweet Grandma Wimmer right before she passed. Yet at the same time….I would trade those days with her for the WORLD. We knew for a long time that she wasn't doing well and this past year or so we watched her go downhill so fast we knew it was just a matter of time. Then we got the phone call. She wasn't eating and it really was any day now. It was about 10 o'clock at night but I didn't care. I wanted to get right in the car and be by her side. Apparently most of her grandkids that could be there felt the same way. We all got in the car and headed up to her care center. What a tender night that was. All five of my siblings were there. And all of the Doug Wimmer kids were there. We all sat around and cried and laughed as we recounted so many of our memories about our Grandma. It was so hard to see her lying there so helpless. That's just not her at all. She's the hardest worker I know. Never stops. Always giving, always serving. And now it was even hard for her to breath on her own. Eventually everyone needed to go home. But my mom was going to stay, and I couldn't leave either. So we slept there, and because of Toby and his wonderfulness, he allowed me to be there as much as possible for the next three days. I'd sleep there, come home while he went to work, and as soon as he got home around 1 or so i'd head back up and spend the night again. I spend so much time by her side, holding her hand along with my Aunt and Uncles, and cousin Jill. It was such wonderful time that I will treasure ALWAYS. During one of the times I ran home to be with my kids for a few hours she passed. As hard as it was that I wasn't there I was so grateful that I was able to spend as much time with her as I did. Losing a grandparent, and especially my last living one, was one of the hardest things I've been through. A lot of tears were shed, but I couldn't help but feel grateful that she was with my Grandpa again. What a reunion that must have been!!! I have so many wonderful memories of her. She was such a HUGE part of my life. A second mom. My Grandpa and her were at EVERY special event in my life. Every birthday party, holiday, piano recital, dance recital, graduation, and so much more.  I know she will continue to be with me and I'm so grateful for her love and her example to me. She truly was and is one of a kind. Her funeral was so lovely and just the way she would have wanted it i'm sure. I was able to speak and say a few words and every single one of her grandchildren but Kate Moser were able to come.  Love you to the moon and back Grandma. I will think you EVERY day. Miss you so already. 







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